For a long time now I have been wanting to do a blog about me; who I am and what I do. I have thought this over countless times. It’s literally been months on end since Simply Recognize has been born and I have wanted to write this blog since then!
I think God has been preparing me to write this blog. He has put people on my path who encourage me and teach me daily. These people send me messages and scriptures, at the time I have no clue as to why that specific scripture was relevant to me, but through time it all starts to make sense.
So here goes nothing!
Hi, my name is Allison, I’m almost 30 years old and I am a child of God. You see, the only part of what I just said that matters is that I am a child of God!
Although my parents conceived me and my mother gave birth to me, God was the one who decided that I should be here…that I was important enough to be born. He created me with a purpose. Just like each invention has a purpose, I too was created with a specific purpose and so were you!
How tall I am and what I weigh doesn’t matter, neither does my hair or eye colour. What matters is that God says I am fearfully and wonderfully made. [Psalm 139 vs 14-16, “I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from You when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in Your book before one of them came to be.”]. I feel really special that the God who created the heavens thought the world needed a me too!!! DO YOU NOT REALIZE HOW VALUABLE AND SPECIAL YOU ARE TO GOD?
Now, I want to focus on something a little more personal. People always tend to look at what’s on the outside, but what’s important is what’s on the inside. What’s on the inside is who I actually am. Galatians 5 vs 22- 23, “but the fruit Of the spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control”.
LOVE: I do love…those who are close to my heart. I love those who in turn love me back. I say that I love my enemies…but do I really? It’s so easy to love someone who is going to love you back. I told my son yesterday to think outside the box because as long as he thinks inside the box he will always be limited to those four walls. Maybe we should love outside the box too…outside our comfort zones!
JOY: I like to think that I am filled with joy…just not at five in the morning, or when my husband is annoying me, or when my kids are making me pull out my hair etc… I could go on and on! Read 1 Peter 1 vs 8-9, we are to be filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy…even at five o clock in the morning! Funny enough how I find myself filled with joy on Sunday mornings in church, or on my birthday, or mother’s day or when I’m in a feel good mood!
PEACE: I’m not even going to try and persuade you that I am filled with peace. I only know peace when I am lying in a hot bath all on my own, otherwise my mind is like a raging veld fire and I only have myself to blame. I’m always worried about one thing or another, where I should be putting my trust in God.
FORBEARANCE: This is going to be a fun one to unpack! Many times in my life I have prayed to God to give me patience. I often find myself saying each day “Lord please give me patience”. You see I have battled with being impatient all my life. I always want things done my way and now (ask my husband). There is no time to wait with me. It’s amazing how I ask God for patience, then He gives me a way to exercise patience and then I completely blow it and then the cycles starts again…and again…and again… There have been times however, when I have been able to show patience, but those times are far and few between.
KINDNESS: My favourite fruit of the Holy Spirit. It’s the one thing I try and distil in my kids on a daily basis. It’s probably the one fruit of the Holy Spirit I’m actually good at, but, then again, if I had to sit down and really reflect upon it, I’m sure I will be the same way as I love…in my box!
GOODNESS: …and uprightness of heart and life. I never really understood this one until I researched it today. I found THIS WEBSITE and basically they explain it like this, “when we act out of true goodness of the heart, we are obedient to God’s commandments and seek the benefit of others. Our actions come from a place of selflessness, and we place the needs of others before our own.” So basically I failed this one too…although I do try and place the needs of others before my own but usually only when it suits me…still selfish!
FAITHFULNESS: Well this one is easy…I’m faithful to my husband, I mean today is our anniversary and we are married for 10 years, been faithful to him for the past 12 years. Well while that’s good and all, I highly doubt this is the kind of faithfulness Jesus is teaching us about here. Just a bit of a disclosure…I am an average joe, I have no theological studies under my belt…I just read my bible and pray, so here is what I think this means.
Being faithful in my opinion, is being faithful to God, His words and commandments. Making commitments and keeping to them…intentionally!!! If you say you’re gonna go to church and read your bible…GO TO CHURCH & READ YOUR BIBLE, not just when you feel like it! When you say you’re gonna tithe…tithe! Not just when your cup overflows but when your cup is looking pretty bare too! When you say you’re gonna wake up at five in the morning to spend some alone time with God…wake up and stop pressing the snooze button until it’s too late and then your off to your busy day with no fuel in your life! I battle with most of these… It’s not easy to be disciplined and faithful, but then again, where does our strength come from?
GENTLENESS: I just want to paint you a picture of me brushing my 7 year old daughter’s hair…its rough! Some days I feel like brushing my daughter’s hair and bathing the cat fit in the same category! It’s rough!
This is probably not the type of gentleness Jesus is talking about, but I’m pretty sure you get the point!
Last but not least…
SELF-CONTROL: I ate double my portion last night and an entire chocolate…so moving on!!!
Even though I am a bad example to use when it comes to displaying the fruits if the Holy Spirit, I am still trying each day; to love out of my comfort zone, to find peace in chaotic situations (to be the peace in chaotic situations), to be joyful( even at five o clock in the morning), to be kind to all I meet, trying to be filled with goodness, trying to stay faithful to God, trying to be gentle in all ways, as well as trying to exercise self-control. I AM TRYING and yes I failed but God sees my heart and only He knows the battles I face each day.
To the world I am a failure…I sometimes see myself as a failure, but I need to remind myself that it doesn’t matter what the world thinks of me because, even though I am full of imperfections, Jesus still thought I was to die for!!!
God knew me before I was conceived, He knew I would write this blog, He knew I would battle with all of these things plus so much more, yet he still thought I was to die for!!!
There is this song from Hillsong, ‘I am who You say I am’. I love this song!
I AM WHO GOD SAYS I AM. I AM FREE INDEED. I’M A CHILD OF GOD! YES I AM!!!
At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter what my name is, how old I am, what my height and weight is, the colour of my eyes, hair and skin have no importance…What matters is that I am a child of God and that I am trying every day to make Jesus proud.
WHO ARE YOU??